I repeat:

We're friends again. I knew I couldn't stay away for long... but I'm still gonna say that if he ever changes his mind about that date thing I'll be right here

He said that I didn't say anything wrong. (thank you)

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Okay, so I finally texted that guy I love and asked out... and ruined everything. I apparently broke a rule (that I wasn't even aware of) where I told him what some other guy had told me... and apparently I'm just not supposed to ever do that.
Now I'm worried that anything I say will make it worse... not that it can get any worse I just want everything back the way it was instead of this clusterfuck. Cuz now people are saying that this other kid might like me... and I do not know what to do with this information cuz I like him as a good friend but not more than that... which is probably how the guy I asked out feels about me... but he probably hates me now cuz i broke that rule... I just want to be back when I was good friends. Cuz that's all he wants so all right, but I don't know how to get back there. Fuck.
Any advice?

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I just want to say a very heartfelt thank you to those who left kind comments on my last journal... that night and the next were really hard for me and I thank you for understanding.


Anyway, I am getting through the days, but I shake when he's around now and I find it hard to look at him. It's so hard to know what to do. I don't know how he feels... but I hope he regrets his decision. But I want to try and change his mind. He means too much to me for me to just give him up, and now that I'm becoming braver around people I like I think I can try it. Here are my reasons:
You shouldn't be so afraid of girls after only one of them broke your heart...we're not all alike, and I certainly would never hurt you. It's like quitting skiing or horseback riding after you fall once, and I don't like it when people do things like that.
You're not the only one who's lost their love. One other guy lost a girl who we all thought was meant for him, and he loves with all his heart, so I do not want to know how much that hurt him. But now he has another, a better, girlfriend, and he loves her with all his heart too. So people can recover. Can't you just try?
I regret to this day saying no to that guy who asked me out in eighth grade. I wish I had taken the chance and not been so afraid, because I did love him and we never said another word to each other face to face. I do not want that to happen to us.
You say that you do not want to ever hurt me. Well, you cannot hurt me anymore than you already have by saying no, and if anything goes wrong you can blame it all on me. You do not have to ever feel guilty.
You say that you value our friendship and do not want to ruin it, but I think you ruined it by saying no, and I do not think I can stand liking you and still being friends. If anything, us being together should strengthen what we already have.
You said yourself that you would love to have a relationship, and I bet it drives you as crazy as it does me to be surrounded by people who are happy together. Here is your chance. I am right here, and if you change your mind I'll still be here waiting for you.
You do not have to call me every day. You do not have to buy me stuff. You do not even have to see me all the time during school. Just to know we are together is enough, trust me.

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